A couple of years ago, I had a terrible relationship with food. I labelled everything as “good” or “bad” and if I ate something not so healthy, I would beat myself up over it. I felt guilty around meal times, even if it was healthy. Did I have too much? Was there too many calories in that? I restricted my eating, over exercised and in the end I was extremely unhappy. Like most girls, I had my insecurities. There were things I picked apart about my body when I looked in the mirror and many things I wanted to change.
I spent a lot of time doing taking a deeper look into where these feeling came from. I learned as must as I could about how the body used food as fuel and to heal itself. I learned through trial and error what worked for me. I also worked really hard to learn where these insecurities stemmed from and had let go of things that were holding me back.I started to trust my body and most importantly, I started to trust myself.
Over the last couple of days, certain anxieties around food and body image started to arise. I had to take a step back and assess what was really going on. I stepped on the scale and I was up 2 lbs. I started to get anxious. Immediately I started thinking I needed to bump up my workouts and dial in my eating. There can be a lot of pressure when you work in the health and wellness industry to be perfect all the time. I started to feel a little bit down and picked apart some things about my body I wanted to change. What was going on? I had worked so hard to let these feelings go. Why were they all of the sudden arising again?
I decided not to stress over it. I got a good night's sleep, got a workout in the next morning, did a healthy grocery shop and moved on. I didn't put pressure on myself to be eat perfectly or restrict myself. Life is not about being perfect but doing the best with what you have.
So, the moral of the story? Be in tune with your body when something feels off. Take a deeper look into what might be going on emotionally. Take a moment to reconnect and most importantly, be kind to yourself.
As always, I am here for you if you have questions or want to chat.